times like this make me think J reads this ( Read more... )

( blather )

so i finally shoved around enough stuff to be able to hook up my computer ( Read more... )

so i'm gonna do myself and all of you a favor... after this, i'm not gonna talk about the J situation, at least not publicly, until he makes up his damn mind. as it stands now, i was right in my speculation that he's worried about feeling pressured about moving in together, and i told him yet again that there's no pressure and i never would have ( Read more... )

talked to J last night who, as in the topic of the previous post, is acting human again. well, closer than he has been, anyway. i'm sure i've been overreacting a lot, but not entirely. something was definitely wrong, but he seems to have gotten over at least most of it. but no, i'm not pretending nothing was wrong to begin with. he's currently ( Read more... )

so i've been obsessing mulling over some things, and i think i have an idea what's got J all weird... he'd talked a couple times about us moving in together, and when i told him i was moving home, i let him know that this could be more feasible now. he said at the time that yes, it was something he still wanted to work toward, but i'm wondering if ( Read more... )

( how can i be tired when i only had half a day? )

so J's son finally mentioned me to the ex and now she won't let J see him. he's understandably irate, but he's not the type to want to talk about what's on his mind. i had told him i would give him some space and leave it up to him if he wanted to talk, but then he got pissed at *me* for not talking. i have no idea what's going on now, because ( Read more... )

while i was in the middle of writing earlier, my phone rang. guess who? he was trying to see if i was coming down tonight. i reminded him that for several reasons, we had decided it better for me to come down tomorrow morning. i also let him know how i feel about indecisiveness. speaking of which, mister "i don't wanna do much this weekend" ( Read more... )

i got my tax money! ~SQUEEEEEE~ just in time for the weekend. i'm supposed to go to LI again this weekend with a trip to the Container Store along the way. i say "supposed to" because he's being an ASS. keeps changing his mind about whether he wants me to come down or to take the weekend for himself (every weekend for the past four months, he' ( Read more... )